Here is the lyrics of the song Unwell by Matchbox20:
All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
This is what best describes my feelings now, unwell...I was almost hit by a bus while heading for home. I haven't slept the whole night until this morning. I don't understand what I'm feeling now and why I am feeling this. I feel cheated by my boyfriend for so many reasons. I don't consider him as my "one great love", but why do i feel so much hurt for what he did to me?! I feel that he's flirting with another girl (just had a bad dream one night, and now that dream is becoming a reality, I found out something) and he doesn't admit that and won't admit that ever, that's the first reason. Second, he has converted to Muslim without me knowing (he should have informed me before doing so). He has only told me that accidentally, we were having a fight that it has slipped out of his mouth. We've talked about that religion thing before he left for Saudi to work there, and he knows very well that I hate the thought of us getting converted to that religion. He said to me that that's the easy way for him to bring me there, but as I have said, we have already talked about that matter beforehand and have agreed not to get converted, and he promised not to. I told him that I will break up with him the moment he got converted. But still he got converted and broke his promise. So what's the sense of his saying that he only wants to bring me there when he knows very well that I will break up with him? That's also the reason that strengthens my gut feeling of his having another girl. The hours we spent online to have a good chat was only consumed by nagging, exchanging of bad words, and hurting each other. I was sad, really sad. I didn't want that to happen. We had a misunderstanding the last time we chat, so I thought that our chat last night will end us making up to each other, but I was wrong. It did make things worst for us. I have found out of so many things this day that he has no plans of letting me know. If not for my being pakialamera (meddlesome) and matanong (asking too many whys to him) I will still be left clueless.. There are still many whys left in my mind, but the big why in my head is that WHY AM I SO HURT? The pain, it's crumpling me.. WHY?
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Michelle
A hit song by The Beatles in the 1960's:
Michelle, ma belle
These are words that go together well
My Michelle
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I love you, I love you, I love you
that's all I want to say
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I need to, I need to, I need to
I need to make you see
Oh, what you mean to me
Until I do I'm hoping you will know what I mean
I love you
I want you, I want you, I want you
I think you know by now
I'll get to you some how
Until I do I'm telling you so you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
And I will say the only words I know that you'll understand
My Michelle
These are words that go together well
My Michelle
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I love you, I love you, I love you
that's all I want to say
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
I need to, I need to, I need to
I need to make you see
Oh, what you mean to me
Until I do I'm hoping you will know what I mean
I love you
I want you, I want you, I want you
I think you know by now
I'll get to you some how
Until I do I'm telling you so you'll understand
Michelle, ma belle
Sont des mots qui vont tres bien ensemble
tres bien ensemble
And I will say the only words I know that you'll understand
My Michelle
The first line is often sang to me by any acquaintance I pass by or meet in the street. That's my name, Michelle. I don't know what is the real meaning of my name in my age of 28 now, until I made a research just this day about my name.
The name Michelle first reached the top 1000 female names in 1938. In, the U.S. it reached its popularity peak between 1968 and 1972. The popularity increase seems to be due by the hit song. Since 1972, the name has steadily declined in popularity to its current 80th place for female newborns.
But what is the real meaning of my name? Michelle, pronounced as Mu-shell or Mee-shell, is feminine form of Michel (French form of Michael), from the Hebrew word Mikha'el, usually translated as "who is like God?" or "who resembles God?", but accurately translates as "what is God like?" I find the meaning difficult to bear and am ashamed of myself for carrying that name knowing that I am a very sinful person, sinful in many ways. Can't see any resemblance or likeness of God from me. I always try to overcome my iniquities and yet I fail. It's simply hard to be God-like. Plus, having known the meaning of my name made me realize that not only should I be good in all the things I do but also to have my share of making Him and His Good News known to all people!
All of us, bearing the name Michael/Michelle or not, should be God-like or Christ-like, for the Lord wants us to be that. Though it may not be easy, with our faith to the Lord and through our perseverance, we will become God-like, pure and perfect, in His time.
Newbie In Weblog
Hmmm.... Don't know how to start this blog... Still thinkin' of what things to write and how to write 'em... I'm not good in blogging nor in writing, and am not even good in the English language, just a newbie in this kind of internet activity...
The first thing I did was to search for the meaning of blog. According to Wiki," blog ( a contraction of the term "weblog") is a type of website, ususally maintained by an individual with regular entries of commentary, descriptions of events, or other materials such as graphics or video.... Most blogs are primarily textual, although some focus on art (artlog), photographs (photoblog), sketches (sketchblog), videos (vlog), music (MP3 blog), and audio (podcasting). Micro-blogging is another type of blogging, featuring very short posts."
Next, the meaning of blogger... Again, according to Wiki, "A blogger is person who writes a blog (or weblog). Bloggers are not a homogenous group. They have a variety of personal and professional motivations for blogging and they come from a variety of political, economic and social backgrounds. One way of segmenting bloggers is by their blog type:
* Personal: blog about topics of personal interest not associated with work
* Professional: blog about industry and profession topics but not in an official capacity for a company
* Corporate: blog for a company in an official capacity
Blogging is not a full-time job for most bloggers, nor is it their main source of income. A blogger can also be a doctor, a mechanic, a lawyer or a musician, and thus bloggers typically maintain a variety of professions for which the act of blogging is their communicative outlet with the public."
Then, the characteristics of a good blogger. Here's what I've picked from the many posts I've read:
1. A successful blogger knows what he wants
He always has a target and a strategy. He likes to be organized and has solutions for “unexpected situations“.
2. A successful blogger knows what he’s doing
He is well informed and likes to read a lot about many things, not only about niche related stuff. He has a good background and solid experience in his field.
3. A successful blogger knows how to do it
He knows that “quality is not an act, it’s a habit” (Aristotle). He takes time writing and rewriting if necessary, until he achieves the best result. Also, he knows that being consistent is his strength.
4. A successful blogger is a good friend
He doesn’t see other people in his niche as competitors; he sees them as a fresh source of knowledge and experience exchange. He will always link to them whenever they write something great, as he knows that a link is a sign of appreciation.
5. A successful blogger is a good communicator
Whether it’s his writing style or his commenting activity, he’s always there when the discussion gets interesting. He’s not ashamed to ask and always glad to share some advice.
6. A successful blogger has a personality
He knows that in order to make yourself heard, you need to have a unique tone. Copy-paste is not his style, even if things have already been said. He’ll always look for that something that nobody thought about. He’ll always look to develop the topic under his signature.
7. A successful blogger is always ready for change
He knows we live dynamic times that require a dynamic mind and personality. He’s not only ready to adapt, but also he likes to keep an eye on future developments in his niche, and not only.
8. A successful blogger knows his value
He has a good sense of self-analysis. He’ll never sell himself short, and also, never truly overrate. Knowing you value means knowing your flaws. Knowing your flaws means knowing what to improve.
9. A successful blogger wants to be better
He never thinks about becoming successful. He constantly tries to improve, as, the better the quality he will provide, the more appreciated he’ll be. He’s constantly climbing a mountain without a visible top. He know how much he has climbed, knows he can go further and simply presses on.
And last, but not necessarily least…
10. A successful blogger is a healthy blogger
“Mens sana in corpore sano” (”A healthy mind in a healthy body” – latin proverb). He knows that in order to keep a sharp mind, a healthy body is required. He values his sleep hours, his meals and he has a good working schedule.
And last, the types of blog posts.... Here are some of the many types of blog posts: instructional, informational, reviews, lists ( posts with contents like 'The Top Ten Things to....', ' Hundred Ways to....', etc.), rant (great for starting discussion), inspirational, research (just what I'm doing now) and others.
Now that I know the basics of blogging, I hope that I would become a good blogger someday....hehe... For now, I'll have to read, read and read to broaden my knowledge and vocabulary. I'll have to study and practice English so that my posts will be good to read and be well understood, and make it habit to write or blog.
Hope that some of the infos here that I've searched will also help the readers who are newbies just like me.:)
The first thing I did was to search for the meaning of blog. According to Wiki," blog ( a contraction of the term "weblog") is a type of website, ususally maintained by an individual with regular entries of commentary, descriptions of events, or other materials such as graphics or video.... Most blogs are primarily textual, although some focus on art (artlog), photographs (photoblog), sketches (sketchblog), videos (vlog), music (MP3 blog), and audio (podcasting). Micro-blogging is another type of blogging, featuring very short posts."
Next, the meaning of blogger... Again, according to Wiki, "A blogger is person who writes a blog (or weblog). Bloggers are not a homogenous group. They have a variety of personal and professional motivations for blogging and they come from a variety of political, economic and social backgrounds. One way of segmenting bloggers is by their blog type:
* Personal: blog about topics of personal interest not associated with work
* Professional: blog about industry and profession topics but not in an official capacity for a company
* Corporate: blog for a company in an official capacity
Blogging is not a full-time job for most bloggers, nor is it their main source of income. A blogger can also be a doctor, a mechanic, a lawyer or a musician, and thus bloggers typically maintain a variety of professions for which the act of blogging is their communicative outlet with the public."
Then, the characteristics of a good blogger. Here's what I've picked from the many posts I've read:
1. A successful blogger knows what he wants
He always has a target and a strategy. He likes to be organized and has solutions for “unexpected situations“.
2. A successful blogger knows what he’s doing
He is well informed and likes to read a lot about many things, not only about niche related stuff. He has a good background and solid experience in his field.
3. A successful blogger knows how to do it
He knows that “quality is not an act, it’s a habit” (Aristotle). He takes time writing and rewriting if necessary, until he achieves the best result. Also, he knows that being consistent is his strength.
4. A successful blogger is a good friend
He doesn’t see other people in his niche as competitors; he sees them as a fresh source of knowledge and experience exchange. He will always link to them whenever they write something great, as he knows that a link is a sign of appreciation.
5. A successful blogger is a good communicator
Whether it’s his writing style or his commenting activity, he’s always there when the discussion gets interesting. He’s not ashamed to ask and always glad to share some advice.
6. A successful blogger has a personality
He knows that in order to make yourself heard, you need to have a unique tone. Copy-paste is not his style, even if things have already been said. He’ll always look for that something that nobody thought about. He’ll always look to develop the topic under his signature.
7. A successful blogger is always ready for change
He knows we live dynamic times that require a dynamic mind and personality. He’s not only ready to adapt, but also he likes to keep an eye on future developments in his niche, and not only.
8. A successful blogger knows his value
He has a good sense of self-analysis. He’ll never sell himself short, and also, never truly overrate. Knowing you value means knowing your flaws. Knowing your flaws means knowing what to improve.
9. A successful blogger wants to be better
He never thinks about becoming successful. He constantly tries to improve, as, the better the quality he will provide, the more appreciated he’ll be. He’s constantly climbing a mountain without a visible top. He know how much he has climbed, knows he can go further and simply presses on.
And last, but not necessarily least…
10. A successful blogger is a healthy blogger
“Mens sana in corpore sano” (”A healthy mind in a healthy body” – latin proverb). He knows that in order to keep a sharp mind, a healthy body is required. He values his sleep hours, his meals and he has a good working schedule.
And last, the types of blog posts.... Here are some of the many types of blog posts: instructional, informational, reviews, lists ( posts with contents like 'The Top Ten Things to....', ' Hundred Ways to....', etc.), rant (great for starting discussion), inspirational, research (just what I'm doing now) and others.
Now that I know the basics of blogging, I hope that I would become a good blogger someday....hehe... For now, I'll have to read, read and read to broaden my knowledge and vocabulary. I'll have to study and practice English so that my posts will be good to read and be well understood, and make it habit to write or blog.
Hope that some of the infos here that I've searched will also help the readers who are newbies just like me.:)
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